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Chordal Conscientiousness 002

State of Grace

41 Responses to “Chordal Conscientiousness 002”

  1. The Barn Says:

    :)

  2. Aug Says:

    For what it’s worth…

    great motif @ 2:00-2:06

    You’re always poetic

  3. CRC Says:

    Yes, I like that motif as well. I was very monkish yet romantic type.

  4. Lynne Oncken Says:

    You are so right on Christopher. Living in the moment creates great kindness and relief. Relief in knowing that it all could end any moment and there’s not one damn thing we can do about it. So go with the flow. Maybe its been my exposure to death thru my career, but there is a sense of appreciation that comes with that relief. Everything is a precious gift – good or bad – and not to be taken for granted.

  5. CRC Says:

    I should also add that I am heavily influenced by native american wisdom, wisdom before all organized religion.

  6. DOUG Says:

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  7. CRC Says:

    Mr. Aarne, you definitely understand. I am off to the hospital to have gut examined. Some serious pain going on. Probably nothing. Just stress messing around with me. Apparently, my spine is messed up from the accident, will take 7 months to get back in alignment, maybe that’s would is affecting my gut. Who knows. It’s helpful to know I have friends.

  8. diana Says:

    Thank you for that reminder. The Catholic tradition is my favorite as well, although I feel that all religions — at their core — are similar.
    I remember when I was studying Tibetan Book of the Dead.
    The teaching I read was that whatever state you are in when you die, there your soul will reside (at least for a while).
    I’ve been fortunate to have felt Grace many times in my life. The state where there is no fear and one knows — not simply has faith — that we are all connected to one another to form a sort of Body of God.
    I think the hardest thing to do is to remember the fleeting glimpses that most of us have had when we felt in a state of Grace.
    As a fellow sufferer of chronic pain which has caused me to lose the life I once had, I am now trying to rejoice in the poverty I now have — not just poverty of finances, but also friends and family who often have a hard time seeing their loved ones suffer and turn away.
    But in that poverty, I realize that the One Thing that is always with me is Spirit.
    If I remember that, I am Rich and will die a good death.
    Perhaps if we all continuously remind one another to live in a state of grace, the world and we who live in it, will one day become a truly Graceful Place.
    The other interesting about poverty is that the fear of death disappears. Perhaps that’s why Saint Francis, Cathars, and so many people who strive for grace embrace poverty.
    When one is empty of even one’s own desires, the Divine fills the void.
    Although I must admit the most difficult thing to give up is the desire to be creative. I often ask myself: What can I write that has not already been written, that will lift the souls of those who read it?
    I guess the best answer to my own question is to write what will lift my soul up so that my soul –as part of the body of God — will work in conjunction with all other sentient beings and lift and be lifted until Grace is constant.

  9. amy Says:

    hi Christopher,
    that was really beautiful. thank you for sharing it. i can relate to what you’re saying. i appreciate the wisdom in every religious tradition but actually was never involved in organized religion.

    i also love native american heritage. i have some Cherokee ancestry. i feel a connection with it. and with my Irish ancestors as well.

    anyway, i really appreciate your candid thoughts on mortality. to me, death is a transition of energy from one state (or dimension) to another one. on my more confident days, i am not afraid of that transition.

    occasionally i dream i am dead. sometimes it is a really beautiful and liberating experience. i tend to fly around a lot in those kind of dreams. the last time i dreamed i was dead, i was so relieved to be out of this body. at the same time, i wanted so badly to talk to my brother, but he couldn’t see me. there was an invisible wall there. it made me so sad.

    i think for me, it’s the material attachments that hurt. the love we get and give to each other through these physical bodies… i come to rely on that maybe too much. maybe i put too much weight on my material life, and not enough on my spiritual (eternal) life. i still cringe when i think of losing a loved one, or having to leave before i’m “ready.”

    what i think you’re saying is if we accept God’s grace (unmerited favor) then we need not cringe at the thought of death, but rather just float above it, fearlessly.

    near death experiences are known to dramatically deepen people and change their lives forever. but i am *really sorry* to hear you are in such pain. i understand back pain too well. my prayers are with you. i hope you are healed completely.

    Doug, you are an angel. your kind, deep voice, and the wisdom you speak always makes me smile. you are a comforting presence.

    actually, you are too, Christopher.

    with love and a lot of appreciation for the whole gang,
    amy

    p.s. we saw the cats 101 show – WE LOVED IT! your cat is cool, but you’re the real superstar in our book.

  10. amy Says:

    i just read what i wrote and it has made me cry. my baby is sleeping next to me. she is so beautiful. i’m not “ready” to go yet.

    God, give me grace.

  11. California Yanqui Says:

    Out in a state of grace; or out with bang. In the moment, till death do us part.

    What’s wild is the piano tune you were playing while conversing with us. I invisioned you sitting at the piano (POV) looking at you across the length of a baby grand with some Tiki gods lit within the frame of some mellow pschedilic mood lighting.

    And being serious. It’s a great thought. These last seven years must have been one huge traumatic gang (blank..PC..) for millions of us trying to live in a state of grace.

    I really didn’t realize the extent of your accident.

    So you’re 49? What month were you born CRC?
    I probably now this already you’re sign starts with a c?
    Me, May 10, 1960. Seaside Memorial, Long Beach.

    Be well, especially you Barn.

  12. AWNBen Says:

    I wholeheartedly agree CRC…..we should always be in a state of ‘grace’ and ready to meet our maker.

    For some reason, since I was about 9 years old, I’ve always been conscious of the fact that the life I call mine…. really isn’t. It’s purely a gift from God to me. And knowing…… that…… deep down inside…… has made me fully away that in the snap of a finger I could be called ‘home’. And I live with that knowledge in peace.

    I was tested in my theory about 16 years ago when something happened to me where I was dead certain I was about to die. In that moment, I found it heartening that I had no fear….just a calmness and acceptance of what was to come. Thankfully, my worst fears didn’t come to pass but afterwards I really was happy with my reaction and knew then and there and without even one iota of doubt that what I’d believed for so long was true.

    I was, without a doubt, God’s child. My life isn’t mine. It’s His.

    Every breath I take is mine because he gives it to me. I control nothing really. I just like to fool myself into thinking I do when my ego gets in the way. LOL!

    Anyway…..Try not to wory about mortality folks. Instead, live each day to the fullest….and always remember to share yourself, your gifts and your love with everyone and anyone who crosses your path each moment of the day.

    CRC…..I hope you will heal fully soon…..body, mind, heart and soul. Every trial and tribulation and every blessing that comes our way is a lesson one way or another. Stay strong and heed the messages being sent in your direction.

    :)

    Oh…and Doug…..you did good.

    Blessings to all of you this holiday season. :)

  13. CRC Says:

    I am 47, but feel like I am 49. Birthday is January 25, 1962. I’ve been at the doctor’s all day and have to go back for more tests tonight to rule things out. Hopefully, I’m not starting another bout of three bad things in row.

  14. AWNBen Says:

    You share a birthday with my sister Vivian….different year however. Good luck to you CRC. Like I said before, stay strong.

  15. California Yanqui Says:

    Anything near 50 is the demarcation line to OMG!!!!! (for me anyways.) I think I have run my course and now on to state of grace training.

  16. AWNBen Says:

    Please don’t say that Yanqui. I just hit the magic number………………..UGGH!

  17. Doug Says:

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  19. DOC Says:

    The bestowal of mercy when unmerited or undeserved nutures the soul to trust. The ensuing peace is the fruit of such grace. Even though you have walked through the valley of the shadow of death, you fear no evil because you have learned to trust.

  20. Anna Says:

    Though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I fear no evil for I am the meanest SOB in the land… or something like that. High school principal before I got swatted for ditching… I rather do that than listen to my mom for the rest of my life……………

    I picked up my old auntie and her spine just crackled. Sne said that felt good… needs to be popped back in place……… you might have an ulcer in your stomach….and after 50, it’s all down hill. I know……….

  21. Roberta Says:

    4 years ago I was driving my daughter to the dentist for a root canal. We were on the expressway we’d driven several times before. I went to pass a car and something in the engine broke and the car accelerated out of control. I stood on the brakes and took an exit ramp off. I thought we were going to die, doing 60-80mph and not slowing, the smell of burning rubber and gasoline in the car. My daughter yelling, “Mom, mom!”

    I looked over to her and said “I love you”. jWe rear ended a woman at a red light at the bottom of the exit ramp and put her bumper in her back seat. Neither she or my daughter or I could stand up after the impact. We all went to the hospital and got morphine for the night. By the grace of Goddess we each walked out the next day and had no broken bones or stitches.

    A week or two before your accident I got the letter from the lawyer that our case had been settled and they didn’t need my assistance anymore. I cried and pinned the letter to the kitchen wall. How different the accident could have gone. But we shouldn’t think about “what if” and instead be grateful for “here we all are.”

    My daughter has a neck problem and her chiropracter gave her a devise to wear on her neck for 5 minutes a day. It stretches the vertebrae and in so doing, makes the fluids in the disks move around and lubricate. I tried it once and am going to buy myself one. They have them for lower back and other spinal areas as well. It is a simple and amazing apparatus.

    I wish you speady recovery. For months after our accident we both were “putting on the brakes” and I would put both hands out to the sides, to protect the kids you know :-) whenever we approached a car too fast for my liking.

    I think your Sunday post – Just be kind, we all need it – is good. When I die they can say “She was kind,” and I’ll smile from heaven.

  22. amy Says:

    i’ve been praying over the “state of grace.” i thought i needed God’s grace. He revealed to me today that i have His grace already. He gave it to me through Christ.

    He showed me that what i really need is God’s peace. He gave that to me too. i just sometimes have it stolen from me. or maybe i give it away. or maybe both.

    just thought i’d share. love and blessings to all.

  23. The Barn Says:

    WOW! CRC? Feel the energy!!!!? I know I do.
    Be well all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  24. AWNBen Says:

    Ah Barn…..you have never ceased to amaze me with your positivity! I love it!

    Ditto on the ‘be well all’…….

  25. Anna Says:

    Truth is no theory, no speculative system of philosophy, no intellectual insight. Truth is exact correspondence with reality. For man, truth is the unshakeable knowledge of his real nature, the Self.

    - Paramhansa Yogananda

    CRC, I believe you will get better, just too many incidents at the same time….Godspeed……

  26. The Barn Says:

    Hind sight 20/20 Ben. This posting was a turning point for alot of us here. Now. Everyone direct this to help heal the pain our Brother CRC is feeling.
    Be well all!!!!!!!

  27. Anna Says:

    And if you have whiplash, you need to massage all you muscles, tendons, etc, back in to place. They are like velcro, anyway, my niece was in an automobile accident and that’s what her mother said the doctor told her…………to do…….Godspeed.

  28. CRC Says:

    I’ve been in the hospital the past few days. Bad thing No. 4 happened. but it could have been worse. After many painful tests, they discover my appendix had to be removed. It was somewhat of a relief because they were saying it could have been something much more serious. Hopefully, I will be coming home tomorrow.

  29. Anna Says:

    The appendix, which is used for the digestion of leaves. When we were cave people, before we discovered fire and cooked our food…………I remember that if a seed got in the appendix, it would caused infection. I was always thought of the chili seed but it might have to be a smaller seed.

    Remember you are as young as you feel. Right now I feel pretty darn young. I now like it when they said, “I didn’t think you were that old!”

    Godspeed-Prosper in your journey…also a song, a heavey metal band and Kurt Cobain……….

  30. The Barn Says:

    SEEEE!! The positive thoughts work well! That and a skilled surgeon. Glad to hear the good news CRC.
    Get well,

  31. AWNBen Says:

    Thanks for keeping us updated on your condition and healing, Christopher. There are alot of people out here praying for you and sending you lots of positive energy and white light. Hope you can feel it from where you are. God Bless!

  32. Doug Says:

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  33. Aduzi Says:

    CRC,

    Sorry to hear of your appendix but glad the surgery turned out well. Here we are again with that Yin and Yang thing, one is not better than the other. Instead they are both necessary and a balance of both is highly desirable. It may have left a scar but then again it’s better off in a jar.

    Your Frienduzi,
    Aduzi

  34. rb Says:

    i hope bad thing #4 turns out to be the beginning of many good things! sending much love and healing light your way…..

  35. The Barn Says:

    CRC? Are you pregnant? I had a freind who once went into the hospital. When she came out? Yep! Kid. Come clean CRC. Kid?
    Get well my friend,

  36. Priya Nath Mehta Says:

    Dear CRC, Doug, Amy, Barn, and all you good folk here:

    We are fortunate in having CRC back with us! The buffetings of fate were terrible, but the hand of protection was ever present with him.

    A potter who makes a vessel out of clay, thumps the clay with one hand, but he comforts it from within, with the other. Also he thumps the clay, not to break it, but rather to shape a beautiful vessel out of it.

    The sufferings in life are similar. If they come in accordance with the Will of God then they also bring His comforting hand along with them. In fact in a sense they bring God closer to us. He must leave His throne and come running to save us at a time when we need him!

    When the skies become dark and threatening there is the lightning flash that comes from them to throw light on us – the lightning flash of Divine Grace.

    However rather than philosophize or digress on the events there is one event for which we must be thankful — and that is the saving of CRC and his coming back to us!!

    CRC, we are so glad you are with us! Congratulations!

    Doug that was a beautiful song sung from the depths of your beautiful soul! Amy you are a beautiful soul in Christ and will never have to face the fear of death. Barn, you are so much in touch with the Divine, the Great Spirit, and your courage and strength fill us all with admiration and hope! CRC you are the great survivor and this shows you are especially chosen by God to be preserved!!

    Yours with love,
    Priya

  37. Doug Says:

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  38. Doug Says:

    Mr. Coppola, I noticed that you have shutdown the audio comments. Sorry if I caused any problems. My intention was more noble than anything.

    Respectfully,
    Doug

  39. amy Says:

    ben, you’re words are like honey. thank you for sharing your heart with my family.

    Christopher, we are with you in spirit. be well.

    barn, you are so kind and just a big old lovebug. i enjoy reading your words and feeling the spirit of love from you.

    doug, you amaze me.

    priya, you humble me.

    with love to all.

  40. Doug Says:

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  41. amy Says:

    thank you doug.

    (WOW that dog sounds like a handful!) xoxo